As far back as I can remember, I've been the person in the group of my friends that was embarrassing. Whether it was my shocking naivety or my over wrought emotional reaction to things most people sneeze at, I always needed hushing. I was always someone to be mocked, derided and laughed at.
Before I hit my twenties, I was way more introspective. Not shy, just reticent. I had a very low esteem of the world around me. I watched people who supposedly loved each other do the cruelest possible thing in a given circumstance for the sake of it. I watched people get taken advantage of.
The unfairness of the world was obvious to me from a very young age.
Now that I'm older, now that I see that the world I've carved out for myself is just as crummy as the one I was wrought from, I'm ready to be silent again.
I've said my piece. And when it's time to speak again, maybe I won't be laughed at. Maybe I'll be wiser.
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